> ridiculously tired
> psychiatrist appointment in less than 2 hours
> pours a bowl of cereal for breakfast
> pours milk and takes a bite
> lol nope the milk is bad
> forced to dump entire bowl and pour another because gross ass milk ruined everything it touched
> other carton of milk doesn’t have enough left for more than one person’s breakfast
> two more people need their breakfast
looks like it’s gonna be another one of ｔｈｏｓｅ days
I’ve come to the conclusion that if you roleplay an OC on Tumblr, you should never openly post anything that could be interpreted as related to the stigma many people have against non-canon characters.
It’s comparable trying to build a house in a tree despite knowing that tree is home to a massive nest of extremely volatile wasps.
I just had to clean about six anonymous hate messages from my rp blog’s inbox, because of this confession I reblogged. They all said pretty much the same thing, about how I’m trying to use that post to guilt my rp partners into replying or how I’m an emotionally manipulative little bitch who whines incessantly whenever I don’t get what I want when I want it.
Except, that post had nothing to do with replies or specific people I RP with. It was just me reblogging something I relate to as someone who RPs an OC. I interpreted it as a general thing related to the stigma against OCs in any fandom/community, not as something meant to specifically target someone for something completely unrelated to the post.
But I guess I deserve the negativity for thinking anyone else on this cesspool of a site would see my feelings as an RPer to be genuine, as opposed to just tools of manipulation meant for guilt-tripping others.
I don’t think people realise how hard it is to re-discover the person you were before depression or even try to remember your own personality
and if you’ve had depression since early childhood you don’t even know if you have your own personality
you didn’t have time to be a person before depression
and it’s scary having no idea who you are